Still No Word

It is 2:19 a.m. in Tel Aviv and the jetlag is in full swing. I awoke about 30 minutes ago and about 2 minutes later I knew I was up for a while. 

A few minutes after that I realized my phone is in airplane mode and I wouldn't have heard the doctor call if she did. My whole body started to buzz as I felt anxiety wash over me.

Would the doctor leave a message? What if she called since I went to sleep at 9:30, overcome by exhaustion and there is a message to call back? Worse, what if there is a message to call back quickly? Would a doctor leave such a message? I was down the rabbit hole.

I needed to turn on the phone to stop the madness in my head (does anybody remeber the "Stop the Insanity!" lady? I think of her yelling every time I say 'Stop the Madness' even though I am misquoting).

Airplane mode off. No messages. Luckily if she did call with results there is no evidence. Thank you, God! That would drive me crazy all day--I'd have to wait until 5 p.m. for it to be 8 a.m. in Austin. As it is, I am going to call the today at 8 a.m. anyways office to check.

I am still fully exhausted and fully awake. I am going to turn on the TCU/Georgia National Championship and hope I drift off while I lay here. It is not good for me to be alone foe too long with my thoughts between midnight and 4 a.m.

Go Horned Frogs!!

Comments

  1. Jeff CreedJanuary 10, 2023 at 4:22 AM

    So stressful! Eek! rest/food/water, is my general plan, I will even schedule. The longer they wait to call the less of a critical rush to treat. So, you will get the news when the news arrives, torture! I have had it two ways so far, once they called me on my cellphone before even home from the test/procedure. The other, they waited 3 weeks to tell me. One was an immediate surgery, the other was, well we want to operated in perhaps the next year. Its a triage, deep breathes. I know that really does nothing for the stress level. When I am emotionally spinning, I try box breathes. In hale for 3 counts, hold for 3 counts, exhale for 3 counts, hold on empty for 3 counts. then repeats. Then there is spicy food. Hard to worse when your mouth is on fire. (Hug)

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 12, 2023 at 5:45 PM

    Thinking of you Jill! Sorry you have to be going thru this worry right now! 🙏

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